A cluttered mind, stacked to the roofs with thoughts of the past, present and future, will always become your greatest enemy. It will keep you from going outside. It will keep you from trying.
That’s why nature is essential. Leave your phone at home and go outside, to clear your mind and find logic within your thoughts.
Discard the ones that don’t serve you, or fill you with fear. (This will take a lot of time so be patient with yourself). And find confidence in the clarity, and allow that you lead you in the right direction.