I wake up in the morning to soft, golden light pouring through my window. No alarm. No noise. No rush. The light wakes me up the same way a gentle touch would by someone I loved. It’s kind. It tells me, without saying a word, that today will be good. I move slowly, as theres no time that even matters. Theres not one person in the world that could find me and that blankets me with a sense of calm that is indescribable. So much of what I am trying to do now has to have that sense of peace because the inspiration I am looking for everyday. Can only be found by not looking for it. Only by being in that one pure, singular moment where a clear thought might gently brush across your cheek. For just one quick moment. If I am distracted, I will never notice it. And, if my mind is busy, then ill swat it away when I feels it’s gentle touch. Only by sitting there without a single place to be will that thought join me.
So that’s what im doing. Just doing nothing. At this pone, perfect moment in my strange and beautiful life. The greatest gift I can give to myself and to the world is to create from this stillness and theres no bottom to that process there. After stepping away from social media and technology, I find there is unlimited color that has been hiding just below the surface. For years, when that color would start to break the surface and show its beauty, I would pull out a phone and immerse myself in the black and white world of distraction. By doing that, I lost my heart, I got depressed and I lost all sense of purpose. By letting that color back in, I was given the gift of being myself again. With all of the beautiful imperfections and magic my heart holds inside of it. I don’t have to think about how to share my love with the world - I just burn, with every person I am lucky enough to meet. And they burn with me, every single time.
The world is not looking for anyone making another instagram post or taking another selfie. They are desperately looking for someone to just talk with. To connect with. To just be human with.
By being myself, to myself, I get to remember what I truly need to be happy. To be grateful. To share love to myself and others. To ask myself and others for what I truly need to feel I’ve lived a life fulfilled. And most of all, I can truly listen to the world for what they need the most and maybe, just maybe, I can give it to them and start a chain reaction of compassion. So we. Can all do our part in alleviating the weight of the world together.
